my journal- take kazillion

05.18.06
america's next top model: alex vu. john and annie's cutiepatootiesweetiehonieschnookems-son. mike's nephew and my muse in starting my kazillionth "journal".
i've tried keeping journals. keeping track of my thoughts, food intake, measurents, crazy life experiences, highs, lows, dreams, frustrations, dramas, expectations, blahbiddy blah blah. uggh. it never works out.
i either get a) tired of my own imperfection in spelling, grammer, lack of interest, etc. or b) forget i'm keeping a journal or c) get bored and just stop. that is, ofcourse, until i walk in to yet another stationary store....browse through their beautiful colleciton of moleskin journals, ruled or unruled, bound or unbound,...purchase one and then start the cycle over again. i probably have about 6 or 10 journals, some empty some partly filled out, some with ripped out pages, some with drawings...all on the shelf. awaiting my next hostage.
so, let's try this blogger out. seems pretty cool. simple. (yes, i am currently a member of friendster and my space...but that's stuff's too busy.) i like this...i like the simple. also, i'm able to vent about my life and let my thoughts out on paper. in hopes of being able to see them in a different light and maybe, just maybe....make my ideas something else other than random thoughts that whiz in and out of this thing between my ears. something real.
also, i like the fact that i can do this....fja;ue50[qu345-701-]5;eldfj;'ajdsdf;'kasdf;lyadjsfkjqwepruy....that was very therapeutic. :)
till next time...whenever that will be.

05.22.06
just can't stay away from the carbs. given a choice...i would pick fries over the salad in any meal. 2 out of 3 times! or maybe, it's more like 2.9 out of 3 times.
why oh why?!
i know why....cuz fries taste so damn good! the salt explosion that happens as you take a large morsel of these potato gods are is just amazing. mouth watering. and i can't help it.
i suck. there is no self control what so ever. none. nada. zip.
i tell myself that i should be more aware of what i eat. but then again, being "aware" of what you eat doesn't keep you from eating what's better for you over what's not. atleast not for me.
and then comes the saying, "everything in moderation, is ok." this, i've been doing better with.
instead of the 2 sides of fries, i'll stick to my one. i try to keep my eyes smaller than my stomach but that's hard too.
today i ate at la boulange. a cute french restaurant on filmore with some coworkers. it was good.
i ordered an openfaced smoked turkey sandwich with fontina cheese, tomatoes, and aioli sauce....with a side of fries ofcourse. it was $8 bucks which was..eh, ok i guess.
but here i am feeling just a bit guilty cuz yet again, the fries got the better of me.
they won, i lost.
i could only hope that i'll be able to come up the winner next time and limit my carbs and try for the salad next time.
the world of greens is awesome, don't get me wrong. but in comparison to the fried substitions, it's really a no brainer.
i know, though, that greens would be so much healthier for me.
ok, i'm rambling. i'll end with this....fried = bad. green = good.